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Saturday, September 4th, 2004
9:31 am	huzzah! Past events in life: Moved back to college in the Performing Arts Theme House. It's falling apart. Literally. It smells like mold. There are bats. The air conditioner has been broken more than 5 times already. No bookshelves. Internet cables aren't working/there aren't enough for all of us. You can feel the house shake when the student center is playing music a block away. When you jump, you're putting your life at danger of falling through the floor into the basement. The furniture is gross. There is food that's been expired for years still in the cupboards. The cupboards and all of the kitchen utensils are incredibly sticky. The stairs to the basement are not only deformed, and you could slip at any moment, but the carpet that is on them is only half on, and tearing off in huge chunks. Some of the doors don't work, like mine into my bedroom. The kitchen refridgerator freezes everything in the fridge even if it's on its lowest setting. ...that's all I can think of right now. Classes have started. Costume History/Design: I'm going to kick their ass at that. Contmeporary Literature: gonna be a hard class. I'm already struggling. I don't like analyzing foreign poetry. Modern Social Problems: not sure yet, think it'll be alright, but the teacher screams everything. Color Theory: easy, yet I know I'll learn something. Acting 2: Gonna be great. I'm designing costumes, hair, and makeup for the first show, The Baltimore Waltz by Paula Vogel. I've got to have my finals done by Thursday. For the second show, The Trojan Women, I was cast as Andromache, way excited for that. It's no Hecuba, but I'm happy and way excited. I'm going to New York City for free for the radio stationor the colleg music festival. Kind of excited about that. The costume shop is going to suck. Big time. Already dreading going to work on Tuesday. Shit, I need to get something done. I hope Grant comes back from running sometime soon. .... Rock me, Sarah Current Mood: calm (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
4:16 am	The Show is the Rainbow says livejournals suck, but I need a livejournal moment. I feel rotten. Right now, it's after 4 in the morning. I dropped Grant off after the concert at 3. I stopped on the gravel road by our house and bawled for an hour. My eyes are raw, my nose is running, and the zit on the top of my lip hurts like hell from snot or salty tears. I wish I never felt like this, and i'm glad he doesn't read this. Maybe I try to hard. I know I worry too much. I think he holds back and I give to much. I hate this empty feeling. I just want him to love me. forever. and he didn't say he did. Current Mood: rejected (Comment on this)
Friday, August 6th, 2004
5:36 am	Trip to Canada..sorry. I guess I'm not feeling creative enough for a better subject line We left on the 23rd as soon as i was off work at 4:30. i got to talk to Grant on the phone Friday as we left Iowa. We stopped at Cabella's and I got some slippers and looked at the fish in the aquarium. I wore the "lucky slippers" to the casino. Planning on winning $10,000 or more only left me disappointed walking out with $25. I ended up spending it on a shirt I hope Grant will liie and a Canadian button. I always feel terrible that I never have some tourist gift when I come home from Canada., but we only stop one place in Canada to get fishing licences and they have a lot of crap I wouldn't buy--mainly mosquito or bear related things or fishing lures. Well, I ordered him a book before I left, kind of as a sympathy gift because I never bring home anything worthwhile in Canada. Oh well, I just hope he likes them. We got to Canada on Saturday and I was ready to leave by Tuesday. My parents were sick of me talking about Grant...I wonder if he talks about me to his parents... Highlights of the trip: + going I guess...I don't know how many more vacations I'll be in on +Dad's stories +wonderful dreams +reading 4 books + getting a lot done for my costume designs + a lot of time to think about things...life...future...blah blah blah + Half hour listening to "what we do" before I fell asleep +not having to work +saw a moose +lots of sleep +NOrthern Lights Lowlights of the trip -no Sarah time -no Grant time -no electricity/running water -didn't get done with my towels -I got a black eye -I got sick twice -mosquito bites -did I mention no grant? Another lowlight....I got back home and had no emails or anything from Grant...just dissapointed me a bit. I send him off with pictures, cards, letters, and emails to remind him I'll miss him....but he didn't even know when I'd be back....so I don't know what to expect. Just a little dissapointed. THat and I don't think my cats were taken care of. THey look starved, and there was a baby kitten with a leg broke. Made me cry. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Monday, July 5th, 2004
9:54 pm	a long day Wow. It’s been a long time with no update. Oops. I guess the only reason I’m updating now is because I have nothing better to do. A lot has happened since my last update. LONDON, end of school, now working every weekend. Summer has already gone by so quickly. I think Grant and I are doing well…I think so anyway. I thought he’d call when he got off work…I’m disappointed he didn’t call me, but that’s coming from the girl who wishes she could see him every night. I just hope he didn’t just sit around and watch tv instead…. enough of me feeling sorry for myself. I really don’t know if I’m going to go to Canada or not. I won’t get the paid time off, but I think Dad will really be hurt if I don’t. …I’m getting nothing accomplished. Rock me, SAR Current Mood: crappy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 17th, 2004
3:02 pm	I'm a Failure I just don't think I can do anything right anymore. I feel worthless and so confused. Such is life. Chase these tears away. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 23rd, 2004
11:52 am	EUROPE HERE I COME! Today I leave for London. I'm excited, I'm nervous, I'm scared...I'm running around like a chicken with its head cut off. Bye LJ for three weeks! Love, SAR (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
12:27 am	I hate finals. Actually, I'm super lucky. I only have one test all week, and it's tomorrow at 7:45. Piss. It's only a test over the last 3-4 chapters in Art History, and I've been paying attention in class. I'm sort of making my study guide now, but am distracted. I'll probably be up the rest of the night studying for this and finishing English. I finished a painting for tomorrow's critique. I need to finish revising this paper on food service, write like 10--15 journals (piss), and study for Art. I better get going. Only got 6 hours to go. I just took a nap while Grant watched TV or played a video game. He woke me up, and now I've got to study. I can't belive I'll be in London in 5 days. thank god. Rock me. Love, SAR Current Mood: cranky (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 14th, 2004
1:25 am	Chuck Close Closer Closest I'm supposed to be finishing up my paper right now on Chuck Close. Instead, I'm not. I'm wasting time here in livejournal to keep me awake. I need to pee. I'll return shortly. I really just want to go to bed but I've got two pages or maybe I'll do extra and do three. Nope. two and a half tops. okay. I've got to get to work. DONE! GOING TO BED! love, SAR (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
1:12 pm	Nibbleschnuze Today was Campus Day and we raked a yard. 114 bags total. Holy shit, that's a lot of leaves. It was fun to spend the morning "working" with Grant on that yard. We just had lunch and he just left to go lift weights. I'm going on a walk on this beautiful day with Becca and then taking a nap. I'm gonna go call Becca. If she's sleeping, I'm just going to take a nap instead of walking. Rock me Love, SAR (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
8:02 pm	what a weirdo. I love that Grant Carlson. This much. <-------------------------------------------------------------------------> and I especially can't wait for our Red Lobster anniversary. Rock me Love, Sarah Current Mood: crazy (Comment on this)
Monday, April 5th, 2004
12:23 pm	that's no arm, my friend Hip Hip! YAY! Theatre Simpson is DONE! Well, there's one more meeting at 4 today, but besides that, T E double R ific. I'm so pumped for free time, I don't know what to do with myself. Oh wait, Dead Week is next week. Maybe I outta go work on my 2 ten page papers. Shit. Rock me, Love, SAR (Comment on this)
Monday, March 29th, 2004
2:58 pm	Improvement I'm feeling much better today, naturally. I haven't showered, or done my hair or make up and I feel great! It's hot outside, so that's nice. I have tech tonight for The Informer. I hope it doesn't last too long. I'm going to go make copies of my passport now. I don't think Grant is as mad as he was. If he is, he hides it well, and that's okay for now. Sometime I'd really like to talk about everything, but for now, I am stressed with so many other things, I like things how they are now. Rock me Love, SAR Current Mood: better (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 27th, 2004
8:51 am	Regret I had the worst nights sleep in the world. I feel terrible. I didn't mean to hide it. I was honestly waiting for the perfect romantic time, but it never happened. I can't lose him. I hurt. He's never been this mad before. And it's all at me. It's the worst feeling in the world to tell him I love him and hear silence. I'm sorry. Current Mood: empty (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 22nd, 2004
11:06 am	Daddy, I'm not Black! Wow. A lot has passed since my last update. Miss those days when I had nothing to do. All last week was tech week in the theatre, and costumes were not ready for Friday so I put in way extra hours in the costume shop so they'd be done in time. The show went up this past weekend and it was a great run of Shakespeare. What a wonderful man he was, and what a wonderful show it was. Yet, I'm so glad for it to be over with. I had an 11am call yesterday, show started at 1. Show got over at 3:30, Photo call at 3:35, Photo call ended at 5:30. I went out to eat at Subway with Lindsay, and then we went to Dairy Queen. I was back at the theatre at 6 for strike, and we got done at 10pm. That's a shit ton of theatre in one day, and I had an art history test at 8 am this morning. Hope it turns out alright. Tonight I have rehersal for One Acts. Tech starts next week. Will it ever end? no. I hope rehersal only lasts as long as she says it will: 9. It will be nice to go to bed early, or at least see Grant for a change. I'm skipping class as we speak, and my prof. said it was alright, for me to get some rest, so off I go to my comfy bed. night. Rock me, Love, SAR Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 7th, 2004
10:50 am	Mystery I had to wake up oober early today to help my mother. She dragged me to church and I pretended like I was having a good time babysitting my grandma. She kept passing me candy, so that made me happy. We went to her house after church and had cookies. Now I'm at home once again. I'm going to take a nap, then I have to go to an old lady's birthday party. She's somehow related to me, so I have to go. It's a good free meal. Hopefully later today Grant will call me so I can go see him. ...and the new puppy too, maybe. Rock me, Love, SAR Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 6th, 2004
7:55 pm	There's 24 hours in my life I can't get back again... Today I did NOTHING! Yes! Finally! A day I can relax and enjoy the smell of nothingness. Actually I did do a few things today. Nothing much. I woke up at noon. I made macaronni after eating two rice krispie bars. I ate that macaronni and cheese. It was okay. I'm not a good cook. I downloaded some sound bites from NPR. I listened to them. I watched two movies: Say Anything and Benny and Joon. I figured out my course schedule for the next three years. This took me about 6 hours. Damn you double major! I decided I wanted to minor in Women's Studies, but there's no way I can without overloading all semesters. Shit. Already I have only enough room for the classes I have to have before I graduate and I have to overload next fall. Super. I took a shower and finally shaved. that's it. I told Grant to call me if he wasn't doing anything, but he hasn't called yet, and I don't think he will now. I'm a little dissapointed in this. I guess I was just looking forward to seeing him, but since he didn't call, I'm assuming he had a Risktoberfest or something. Rock me Love, SAR Current Mood: dorky (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
3:34 pm	I got a feeling... Ah crap. Today, my day where I am done at 12:15 so I can take a four hour nap before Grant wakes me was interupted by rehersals. It is now 3:30, so I only have one hour, therefore I will make this update short so I can sleep longer. I have a meeting tomorrow to become an art gallery assistant. woo! In other news...I can't wait until Friday. Finally a break! It's not soon enough. Too bad I'll have to work and do two papers. Its nap time, friends. Come nap with me. Rock me, SAR Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 26th, 2004
2:43 pm	To add to that... I skipped class today due to the ebola virus in me. Oh well, apparantly we did nothing anyway. (Comment on this)
2:36 pm	weekend is slowly approaching What a week. Kevin Goodahl has been here (at the theatre) all week, and it's been great. He's super helpful, and actually encouraging unlike the actual director. Anyway, he's leaving tomorrow night after rehersal. I'm glad he came and gave me acting pointers, but he's also forced the huge wall of reality on me and it scares me shitless. He's successful, and there isn't a day goes by that he isn't scared. It's hard for him (a star) to find work. Luckily, he says, he has education to fall back on, and can be a teacher. I don't want to be a teacher. What do I have to fall back on if theatre doesn't work out? Art. I've dug myself a hole. I don't want everyone to be right when they worry that I won't find work because I'm seeking professions in theatre and art. I have to prove them wrong. I have a nasty cold. Sore throat, stuffy, runny nose, plugged ears, coughing...the works. Go away! I'm extremely dissapointed and betrayed by someone. And I can't do anything about it. Sleep time...will I have another reoccuring weird dream? Rock me, SAR Current Mood: pessimistic (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
1:48 am	Close Portrait I'm supposed to be writing my outline for Art history class. I've got one page down, and I'm already taking a break. It's going a bit faster than I thought it would, so that's good, but I also have about 4-7 pages left to go. I hope this isn't a huge part of our grade. I'm fine if the actual paper is, but I'm really not liking this whole outline thing. A 5 page outline? What the shit. Might as well write the god damned paper. In other news, I'm doing much better than the last update. I'm super duper busy this week, and I don't think I'll ever get a chance to stop and give myself some time, which is bad because I'm getting sick. All of the sudden, today I woke up with a nasty cold or something. Maybe I have the ebola virus. Yuck. I feel like crap. It's like I need to puke, but my throat hurts so terrible, and my nose keeps running. My stomach just aches though. It doesn't help that I'm sucking these disgusting menthol cough drops. Oh, let me just go to sleep. Please. Rock me, SAR Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)